Why can’t I get a damn Follow button to work on my page?! I’ve downloaded a plug-in and installed it, added a widget from the plug-in and it still doesn’t appear! This is really starting to piss me off! What am I doing wrong here? Someone please help me before I smash my device into the wall!
I knew it was coming and tried to prepare for it as much as anyone with bipolar disorder can, but it still hits you like a ton of Mac trucks. Not only do I deal with bipolar but I also live with numerous chronic health conditions that came after battling cancer over a decade ago. For some reason, the physical health issues seem to come exactly when I crash from a manic period. I don’t know how or why that happens, but it never fails.
So basically I’ve spent the past two days in bed going through these sweating fits that I assume are hormonal in nature. There’s really no rhyme or reason to their onset so there’s no way to prepare or plan on how to work your day around them. I just have to bundle up in sweats and a hoodie to grin and bear the grossness of profuse sweating while trying not to soak anything else other than what I’m wearing. They usually last for 30 minutes but come and go throughout the day. And there’s telling what day it will happen. Or how many days it may continue.
I have important things I need to take care of tomorrow so I can’t afford to lose another day to this annoying symptom that I’ve yet to understand where it comes from. I’m in the process of looking for a new place since my lease is up at the end of the year and I already have an appointment set up for tomorrow. I don’t want to miss out on finding the perfect place for me so I pray that I don’t see the beginning of a true crashing spiral.
Usually my crashes start out with some health problem laying me up in bed for a day and then it just seems to get harder and harder to get out of bed as each day passes. The spiral begins. Then the spiral takes over. I’m trying really hard to stay aware of my shifts and cycles so I can prevent them from controlling my life like they always have. I’m praying really hard that I will get out of bed and function tomorrow instead of losing another day.
Okay, so I’ve been messing around with my site for 2 days now, off and on, trying to get a simple little button on there so people can click and “Follow” me. Everyone else has a button like that on their blog. It was just recently brought to my attention that I don’t have one and it might help grow my blog if there’s a way for people to easily follow it. Hence the reason why everyone else has a freaking button! I’ve even had a few readers personally ask me to add one so they can follow me without having to subscribe the email way.
Anyway, I don’t have a widget set up and ready for me to use as opposed to how it sounds like most people do. Don’t know why this is but I’m not going to put much thought into figuring out why that is. Maybe I’m just special! Yup, that’s what I’m going with!
I think I have to download a plug-in that offers me the ability to use a “Follow” button and then add it as a widget somewhere or something like that. I just know I got really close last night and apparently fell out before I was able to make anything happen. I just wanted to update anyone who cares about my progress and let you know that I really have been working on it. I’m sorry it’s taking me so long to do what should be seemingly simple but I’m learning as I go on WordPress. Plus, I get so easily distracted when it comes to this stuff. There’s just so much to learn and I know so little at this point. Bare with me though!
Thanks for your patience! All my love!
I just need to express my gratitude for those random people who cross your path and remind you that we are all connected and no one should ever feel alone in their struggles. It’s so rare and refreshing when you find evidence of prior travelers on the path you’re stumbling along.
We need to stop considering mental illnesses as negative aspects to who we are. God designed each one of us as perfect for His plans and purpose. We should embrace it as one of the qualities that makes us unique and special and beautiful in God’s eyes. That just gave me a thought… maybe we should just start suggesting to kids these days that “crazy” is the new “cool.”
Okay, I’m getting sidetracked here. My whole reason for this post is to share my appreciation for a fellow blogger Revenge of Eve. This poetry spoke to me like it was written specifically for that purpose, for me. Be amazed….
via I Get It
Okay, so I think I’ve finally accepted that the doctors may be correct in diagnosing me with bi-polar 1 disorder. For the longest time, like 14 years or so, I didn’t want to admit to myself that I actually have a mental illness. After talking with a therapist today, I realized that I have exhibited every symptom of the disorder at some point or another and just haven’t been aware of it. It’s probably more like I never wanted to be aware of it. Well… unfortunately I can’t ignore it and believe it’s not there anymore. Damn. I guess I have to deal with it now, huh?
All my love!
With an open mind, I will accept the truth in my life today that is beyond my understanding.