I’m not crazy! I swear!

Okay, so I think I’ve finally accepted that the doctors may be correct in diagnosing me with bi-polar 1 disorder. For the longest time, like 14 years or so, I didn’t want to admit to myself that I actually have a mental illness. After talking with a therapist today, I realized that I have exhibited every symptom of the disorder at some point or another and just haven’t been aware of it. It’s probably more like I never wanted to be aware of it. Well… unfortunately I can’t ignore it and believe it’s not there anymore. Damn. I guess I have to deal with it now, huh?

All my love! ❤️❤️❤️

2 Replies to “I’m not crazy! I swear!”

  1. Doctors! What would THEY know?? 😉

    Well done for being brave enough to seek a ‘Second Opinion’ (sometimes known as ‘help’) on what’s been ailing you for all this time. It takes guts but is the right thing to do when we get to a point where we feel a little …. ‘unsure’ – is that a strong enough word?? 🙂

    Far too many of us get to that point sometime, and far too few do what is needed when we do. Congratulations on taking the step! 🙂

    I feel it’s important though to remember… you are a unique individual and ‘labelling’ you with one condition or another or believing that the label is who you are is not the reality. Just because events in your life and your reactions to them may fit into someone else’s ‘standard’ of a particular ‘type’ should not confine you into being what they think you should be. Be who you want to be not who they think you might be.

    There is no such thing as ‘perfectly normal’ when it comes to our personality/psyche.

    Of course, there are some real whacko’s out there too! 😉

    Best advice i can give…. aim for somewhere in between! 🙂

    … and still get the occasional ‘second opinion’ to see you’re actually on the track you think you are! We all tend to have an over-optimistic opinion of that estimate! 😉

  2. I’m really glad I found your blog on the “sharing party!” You’re awesome and I will Cerbone following you. I’ve got a little girl with BP1 and blogs like this are so helpful. Thank you!

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